Does it get easier? I wake up every morning wishing I could remember my dreams. I haven't been able to remember them since my mom died. I keep hoping she'll come to me in my dreams, hoping that I can talk to her or see her. Is that crazy?
I want the sad to go away. It's not depression, I have that part under control, it's just sadness. It isn't there all the time, but it creeps up at odd times. When I'm driving, when I'm in the shower, when I'm standing outside with my dog. There are obvious things that trigger it, but then there are times it's just there. I almost feel guilty for wanting it to go away, because in some weird way it's like I won't miss her anymore. I want to be in a place where remembering her isn't sad. When does that happen?
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